July 16, 2023

This is the VOD from 2 years ago. As with every other verse in the Bible, this one is just as relevant today as it was 2 years ago.

I know Adonai is good. I know that He is incapable of evil. And because I know these things, I know I can #trust in Him in all aspects of my life. I knew that nearly 21 weeks ago. I've known this my whole life.

Because I know the Lord is #good, and because I knew it when my wife suddenly and unexpectedly died, I know I can trust in Him to carry me through this dark time...

As you all may be aware by now, I've been struggling, lately, with all this. I've been unable to move, even though Felicia said I was in that dream I had... dreams... one of my aunts dreamt of Felicia the other night. Felicia went to her and said she feels wonderful, she's running and dancing, and fully healed and singing. She's doing great, according to my aunt's dream.

I love this. And, I've had other people tell me they've dreamt of Felicia, too, and, in each one, she's healed, whole, and happy. As heartbreaking as it has been for me, hearing these dreams has been really wonderful for me. They have brought me some peace. They have confirmed what I have already known: my wife is fully healed and praising Yahweh while dancing in the presence of Yeshua. How #wonderful is that?

My trust in Yahweh has blessed me with people sharing their dreams with me. I have had my own dreams, but hearing them from others, especially those who ever hardly got to see Felicia, has been a huge blessing to me and have truly helped me during this trying time.

I'm still standing on that boat in the middle of a storm-driven lake, nearly halfway up this million-mile mountain. But, I can see Yeshua standing on the waves asking me to go to Him. I need to finally step off this boat and walk across that water. I'm so close. I just need to trust in Yeshua that when I let go of Felicia's hand and give her to God, I won't lose any memory or feelings of her. I'm still hesitant. I need to let her go.

I will. Just not yet. I can't. But, I will...

I love you, my beautiful wife. Always. Forever. #Fiercely