He knows I hurt. He knows how distraught and lonely I am. He knows how desperately I want to have my sweet bride by my side. He knows just how devastated I am. And He's working to bring me out of my pit of despair and back onto the mountain of Hope.

My trust in Yahweh has blessed me with people sharing their dreams with me. I have had my own dreams, but hearing them from others, especially those who ever hardly got to see Felicia, has been a huge blessing to me and have truly helped me during this trying time.

Memories of my wife are scattered all over the place. Nearly every place I go, Felicia and I had gone together regularly whenever she was able. We always goofed off when we shopped together. She loved how I could make her laugh. Even in her worse moments, I could make her laugh and she'd tell me "You always make me laugh and I love that about you.”

A lot of my days these past 20 weeks are a blur. But, those few weeks, especially in the beginning, were full of love. I remember getting calls and cards from friends and family. I was brought comfort by people I hardly knew. This was God being my Shelter in my time of need.