Psalm 59:16

July 14, 2023

This was the VOD from two years ago. This verse really hits home with me. When Felicia suddenly and unexpectedly passed, I ran to Yahweh. I wailed in His arms. And I felt comfort. As painful as that moment was, turning to God was all I could think of doing. I needed His Spirit to lift this burden from my crushed soul. I needed His refuge in my day of trouble. And I got it. I got every bit of it.

The days that followed are all a blur. A lot of my days these past 20 weeks are a blur. But, those few weeks, especially in the beginning, were full of love. I remember getting calls and cards from friends and family. I was brought comfort by people I hardly knew. This was God being my Shelter in my time of need.

Then, when we had Felicia's Celebration of Life, I was enveloped in The Holy Love of Yahweh. I remember worshiping Him with my whole heart, my whole soul, my whole mind... I remember praising Him for giving me 22 wonderful years with my beautiful wife. It was a very moving and Spirit-filled service. The #Love of God was palpable. We could feel the Holy Spirit surround us with His #Grace.

The following week, we cremated Felicia. My parents, sister, a few aunts and uncles, and Vickie and Lynn were all there with me. I thought it was going to be heart-shattering to be there. Instead, we felt the room fill with the Holy Spirit. I was so overwhelmed with grief the Spirit comforted me to the point of pushing aside that grief and giving me a sense of peace, of pure, sweet love.

So, during these past 20 weeks, I've been singing of Yahweh's power, of His #Mercy. This has helped calm my distraught soul; it has helped ease my horrific pain. And even though I'm currently struggling to put one foot in front of the other, I'm still giving #praise to My Father. Because, 22 years ago, He brought me back to life in Him. Through Felicia. Her selflessness reawakened my desire to serve Yeshua. I'm forever thankful Felicia let God work through her.

I love you, my angel. Always. Forever. #Fiercely