My shattered heart doesn't want to let her go. My crushed soul doesn't want to lose the millions of memories of her. I long for her love. I yearn for her affection. She loved me like no other. And it was beautiful…

Each time I think about moving forward, I see my wife, and I feel like if I did move, I'd start losing my memories of her. I know I won't. She even told me I'm moving. But, lately, I feel like I've been unable to move. And it's because I don't want to…

Yet, I still struggle. I'm still standing in this boat, wanting desperately to step over the side and onto the stormy waves. I hear Yeshua calling out to me, telling me not to be afraid. And, even though my heart is torn, even though my soul is crushed, I know His voice will guide me across the waters, to His outstretched hands, and onto the shore so I can continue my million-mile climb up this mountain.

I need guidance. I'm struggling to move. I want to move.