His Truth Endures Forever
July 11, 2023
20 weeks ago, today, my beautiful bride went to be with Jesus in Paradise. 140 days ago, my life forever changed. I've said this many times, and I still hold to it: I could have completely turned on Yahweh. I could have raised my fist to Him. I could have yelled at Him. I could have destroyed my own #faith.
But... God is good. His #Mercy? It's Everlasting. His #Truth, THE Truth, endures forever. There's no hiding from the Truth. There's no mistaking the Truth. And because there's no hiding from or mistaking God's Truth, I knew that running from Him, yelling at Him, or turning away from Him would have all been detrimental to me, to my healing.
Instead, I ran TO Him. I yelled FOR Him. I raised my HANDS to Him, falling to my knees and weeping in His arms. I felt devastated. My heart felt forever shattered. My soul felt forever crushed. My life was forever changed... but I couldn't NOT worship Yahweh. I couldn't NOT praise Him for 22 incredible years with the most incredible woman. Because of God's #Providence, because of His #Plan, I turned my life around 22 years ago and never looked back.
Now? I'm a better man because of the life He gave me. A life full of love and happiness. A life full of joy and wonderfulness. Adonai helped me and Felicia through numerous hard times. But we never doubted Him. We never tried to move forward in our life as man and wife without Yahweh being an integral part of it.
Yet, I still struggle. I'm still standing in this boat, wanting desperately to step over the side and onto the stormy waves. I hear Yeshua calling out to me, telling me not to be afraid. And, even though my heart is torn, even though my soul is crushed, I know His voice will guide me across the waters, to His outstretched hands, and onto the shore so I can continue my million-mile climb up this mountain.
I just need to get unstuck. I need to constantly remind myself Felicia is whole. She's healed. She's worshipping God in His Full #Glory, awash in His pure Love. I need to let her be with God... but I'm struggling to let my wife go...
I love you, my sweet angel. Always. Forever. #Fiercely
