July 9, 2023

I've referenced this verse a few times over the past 20 weeks. It's the VOD for today, and it couldn't have come at a better time. I needed this reminder. God knows I need this reminder, so I thank Him for letting it be the VOD.

Losing a loved one is devastating. Losing a loved one suddenly and unexpectedly leaves a lot of things unfinished... when I lost my wife on February 21, I lost my world. I lost my future. I lost my joy. I lost my happiness. I lost my purpose...

But I found a new #hope. I found a new #purpose. Now, I pray these will bring me #joy and out of this pit of despair I'm in. This verse is a great reminder of how what I'm going through now pales compared to what Yahweh has in store for me. I know I'll continue to suffer a little while longer, but I also know that His #Glory will be revealed to me. I've already experienced some of His Glory and a lot of His Love during these past 20 weeks. I know there will be a lot more from Him. I just need to patiently suffer until that day comes.

It's hard, though, being patient while standing on the edge of this boat on this stormy lake with its wind-driven waves rocking me as I'm trying to step onto the water. I see Yeshua out there, among the waves, calling for me to go to Him. I'm trying to step off this boat so I can continue my climb up this million-mile mountain. Dear reader, pray I'll have the #faith to do it sooner rather than later. I want to be a servant of God. But I'm stuck, trying to heal from this massive hole in my heart. I'm certain He is patiently waiting for me.

I just need to be patient with myself... and remember His Glory is worth my current suffering.

I love you, my sweet princess. Always. Forever. #Fiercely