April 17, 2023

Felicia is the Lord's. As am I. As are you. We all belong to Yahweh, but He lets us roam freely, allowing us to choose to follow Him. Some do, some don't.

Felicia followed Him with all her heart. She constantly sought after Him, reading His Word. Through all her pain, she still had #faith in Him. She knew she was His and did her best to serve Him.

One way she served Him was by loving me. She and I took Paul's teaching to heart. She submitted herself to me and I, her. We served Our Father by serving each other. She took such good care of me...

Today is the first birthday I celebrate in 22 years without her present... there was one other occasion when I had a birthday without her in my company and that was due to a company meeting. BUT, we chatted for two hours on the phone that night, after she called me that morning to wish me a happy birthday. So even though that one time we weren't together on April 17th, I still heard her voice; I still spent time with her.

Now, as I start my 50th year on this planet (I turn 49 today), I start it without my lovely bride. The last time I started my birthday without having a partner was 22 years ago (Felicia and I were just talking at this point 22 years ago). Every birthday since has been celebrated with Felicia by my side, even that one time when I was at a meeting.

I never thought I'd be this lonely on my birthday... I never thought I'd be without my Felicia. But as I still mourn the loss of my precious wife, I also rejoice knowing she's healed and praising His Name at this very moment. She's basking in His #Love and #Glory while we toil here on earth. I miss her terribly. Especially right now... but I know she's with Our Father. This comforts me.

I miss you, Felicia. I miss your "Boozey Bourbon Caramel Spice Cake" you made for my birthdays. I miss the sweetest little surprises you'd give me. I miss your loving arms and kisses. I miss YOU.

Thank you, Adonai, for giving me the best birthdays I've ever had for 21 years with Felicia. I am so blessed to have had a marriage as wonderful as ours. I love you.

And I love you, my angel. Always. Forever. #Fiercely