13 Weeks

May 23, 2023

As long as we put our #faith and #trust in the Messiah, we cannot be separated from Yahweh's wonderful #Love. This is a beautiful reminder of God's love for us. These words comfort me during my trial of grief. As long as I put my trust and faith in Yeshua, I know I'll always have God's Love covering me.

On this 91st day, in this 13th week, without my lovely bride, this verse reminds me that no matter what happens in my life, Our Father, in all His #Mercy and #Grace, still loves me. And He's shown this to me over and over again these last 13 weeks.

Even when I've stumbled off this #path, He still showed His Love for me. I thank Yahweh for loving me; for holding me close right now; for lighting my path so that I may move forward. I have a long way to go up this million-mile mountain. But I know that as long as I put my faith in Yeshua, as long as I trust the Holy Spirit, as long as I let Yahweh continue to love me, I'll summit the peak.

I can't rush it, though. I can't force myself to "be okay." I hurt. My heart aches. My mind is reeling with a billion memories I'm trying to make joyful and not sad. My vertigo isn't helping, either. So I need to just meditate on God's Word and let Him soothe my overburdened soul...

It's easier said than done for us mere humans. We are so conditioned with human connections that it's easy for us to be hurt. It's easy for us to suffer so tremendously. This is the result of thousands of years of trying things ourselves and not relying on Yahweh. It's the reliance, though, that gives God Honor and Glory. So, I'm trying to take this pain and suffering and give it to Our Father. I'm just easily reminded, every moment, my wife is no longer with me... I'll keep my focus on Yahweh, though. I'll continue moving. Because I have to. Because Felicia would want me to...

I love you, my darling princess. Always. Forever. #Fiercely