May 28, 2023

This was the VOD from a year ago. I'm thankful for the reminder and for the Memories feature on Facebook because I needed this.

I've been struggling, lately, with things. I've had vertigo ever since I got back from Holland. But, now, it seems to be dissipating. I've been going through a million emotions lately, too. I'm trying to manage them a little better, but they've been hard to wrangle.

Most of all, I've been struggling to stay on this million-mile path up this mountain. I've been dealing with demons and having to learn how to navigate through satan's distractions he keeps putting in my way. I need to focus on Yahweh. I need to keep my eyes and heart focused on Yeshua. I need to let the Ruach HaKodesch work on my soul.

It's verses like this one which help. It's reminders like this that help me to move forward. When Jesus said, "Blessed are the poor in spirit," I'm comforted. I know He's reminding me how much He loves me and that as long as I can keep my focus on Him, I will be okay.

Today's VOD is a solid reminder that if I can just get out of my own way, I can start truly being used by Our Father. Here's today's verse - Acts 4:31:

"After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly."

Ever since Felicia's passing, my spiritual journey has been so cleansing for me. I still have a long way to go, but continually going to Yahweh in my desperate need has been life-altering for me. The humanness in me is still struggling for air but the Holy Spirit is fighting, hard, for me to keep my eyes on My Lord. I've slipped and probably will continue to slip until I learn how to have better footing. I'm looking forward to that. I still hurt. I'm still broken. I miss my incredible wife terribly...

I love you, Felicia. Always. Forever. #Fiercely