All About Faith
April 22, 2023
This specific passage from the first of the two letters of Peter is about #faith - the kind of faith it takes to step out of a boat and onto stormy waters...
This is the faith I need. I'm getting there, I know. I can feel it. But I'm still one leg in the boat. I'll be on the water soon. I just need more faith. And Yeshua is working on that with me; the Holy Spirit is working on it with me while Yahweh keeps me in His Hands.
I'm #thankful and #grateful I know Adonai, His Son Yeshua, and The Spirit. I need to be stronger in my faith, though. I need to be better at resisting the various #temptations satan throws at me. I need to show my family and friends that I've picked up my cross and am following My Lord and Savior. I want to be a reflection of the #wisdom and #love of Jesus. I want people to see Him, not me; acknowledge Him, not me. I want the words you read in these posts to be aligned with God's Word. I want Our Father to use me, use my shattered heart, use my crushed soul, for His #Glory...
As I stand on this boat on this lake halfway up my million-mile mountain, I struggle with moving because I still fear what's beneath the waves. And, I still fear that I'll start forgetting her laugh, I'll start forgetting her eyes, her smile, her wit, her beauty... I need to push beyond this fear because I know it's unfounded. I know the #memories I have of my beautiful Felicia will never be erased. I know the love I have for her, grown through 22 years of an incredible relationship, will always be there.
But, the human heart Yeshua holds, repairing it daily, still longs for my angel. I had written poems about her long before I met her. She was the girl of my dreams. After years of not knowing her, we finally could become one. And, so, for the past 22 years, 19 in marriage, Felicia and I became one flesh, fully involved with each other, loving each other. When I lost my wife, I lost my favorite part of me. Now, I need to continue healing. I need to step out of this boat. I need to keep my eyes on Him who gave us each other...
I miss you, my beautiful wife. Always. Forever. #Fiercely
