Grief is an odd emotion. Sometimes, it's a peaceful, loving emotion. Sometimes, it's a sobbing, heart-wrenching emotion.

My healing will take time. I know this. I just, sometimes, feel like I'll never get up this million-mile mountain... sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in this stormy lake…

I need this reminder to not let my heart be troubled because my heart is distraught right now. I've been in deep mourning…

I know it's been nearly 13 weeks, but it feels like yesterday. I thought I turned a corner a few weeks ago... I think I was wrong. I thought I stepped out of the boat and crossed the stormy waters to Yeshua's Hands... I think I was wrong.