#Harvest
July 5, 2023
Felicia loved working for Yahweh. She loved sharing the #truth whenever the opportunity presented itself. Her #faith in Him was unwavering and remarkable. Through her pain and suffering, she still sought after Our Father.
This was one of the many traits I loved about my wife. She was unashamed of who her Lord is. She never shied away from talking about Him.
19 weeks ago, when I was suddenly and unexpectedly left as a widower, I chose to keep my focus on Yahweh. I chose to continue my worship of Yeshua. I chose to allow the Holy Spirit to work within me. I could have chosen something else entirely. But I knew God is incapable of evil, so I knew the loss of my wife wasn't something He did. And because I still know this to be true, I know I can continue climbing my million-mile mountain with Him as my guide. I know that there's a ripe field which needs harvesting, and I want to help Adonai cultivate His Crop.
19 weeks ago, I had no idea what I was going to do. My life was immediately and completely different than what it was 24 hours prior. All the care and love I gave my wife had nowhere to go but up. Instead of wallowing in the pain and sorrow I was suffering, I chose to focus on God and focus on Jesus. I still need to focus harder. I still need to dive deeper into His Word...
I miss my beautiful wife. I miss her wonderful laugh. I miss her sweet smile. I miss her loving eyes. I miss her warm embrace. I miss her soft words. I miss Felicia. Intensely. Deeply. I miss the love we gave each other. I miss how we could always make each other laugh. I miss how we always told each other we love each other. I miss my favorite part of me...
Now that part is gone. She's been gone for 19 weeks, and it still feels like it just happened. She's been gone for 19 weeks, and sometimes it doesn't even seem real. But I know it is. And it hurts when I come to that realization. It hurts hard. It hurts long. So I seek His Face so that I can find His Peace...
I love you, my darling angel. Always. Forever. #Fiercely
