1 Peter 3:15

April 6, 2023

Felicia always shared her love for Yeshua. She always had an answer to her #Hope in The Lord. She was never shy about sharing her #faith. Whenever anyone would ask her about Yahweh, Jesus, or anything else about The Bible, if she didn't have an answer immediately, she would find one for them.

Even through her pain, she did what she could to share God's #Love. She was one incredible woman, and I miss her terribly.

Whenever I wake up, I remember she's not here... whenever I go to sleep, I'm sleeping without her by my side... in between brief moments of "normalcy," I'll find myself stricken with the painful reminder that my wife is no longer with me...

But then I remember that she's #healed! She's #free from pain! She's #whole again and #praising His Name in His Full #Glory!! My wife may not be by my side, I may not feel her loving arms again or her gentle kiss, but I couldn't ask for her back - not now that she's fully healed, pain free, and in God's glorious presence.

I would be an awful husband if I asked God to return her to me in this miserable world we live in. I would be selfish to ask Him to let her come back because she would suffer again. Even if I promised to do everything I could to stop her suffering, it would be futile and against His Plan. As much as I miss Felicia, I couldn't ask for her to come back. All I can do is ask Yahweh to help preserve my memories of my wonderful wife. And I have a billion of them.

Thank you, Father, for blessing me with 22 wonderful years with the most incredible woman I have ever met. I'm broken, but You're healing me. I'm crushed, but You're lifting this weight.

I miss you, my beautiful angel. Always. Forever. #Fiercely