Through her agony, she searched for Him. Through her torment, she turned to Him. She cried out to God frequently over the last year and a half. Her suffering was only endured through #Faith in Him.

But in my waiting, I am full of despair and a sadness beyond grief. I've lost the singlemost important person in my life. I've lost my most favorite part of me. And it hurts beyond measure.

Yahweh didn't create me to be afraid of what lies ahead. He has given me the Spirit of Power, the Spirit of Love, the Spirit of a Sound Mind... having these gifts will help me, if I allow them…

I can't seem to get beyond this pain. And, frankly, sometimes I just want to suffer in it - it seems like it's the only way I can feel our love for each other... my shattered heart wants to feel her love again... my crushed soul wants to feel her warmth again…